Edward Cullen

I love to read. Anyone who has spent any time with me knows this. When I was in high school, it was not uncommon for me read four to six books in two weeks. But as I have grown older, my time has become more precious and I do not read as much as I would like.

But I still make time to do so. Reading, for me, is an escape. It is a way for me to forget all my problems and lose myself in a make believe world that is so real to me, even if it is only for a short time. Right now I am rereading my favorite book ever, Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. It is actually a young adult book, but I love it anyway.

It is about vampires if you are unfamiliar with it. But they are not your normal vampires, but if you want to know more you will have to read it.

As I am reading this book again, it amazes me how it parallels my own life. I know what you are thinking, "She is in love with a vampire who wants nothing more than to devour her but restrains himself because of the immense love he feels for her?" If only. I don't know any vampires, but there are some striking similarities between the book and a certain situation in my life.

One of the main characters in the book is a vampire by the name of Edward Cullen. I LOVE this character. He is like the ultimate bad boy that every girl wants, but he also is debonair and chivalrous. He is the ultimate protector and epitomizes true love, in my humble opinion. I sometimes wonder and day dream about how I might have reacted if I had come across this inhumanly beautiful man. (Can he still be called a man if he is technically not human?)

I am also very psyched about the fact they are making a movie out of the book. Most people don't like it when a book is put on the big screen, but I have this uncanny knack for keeping the book and the movie separate. Except in the case of the Series of Unfortunate Events movie. There were some major character flaws in that one, but that is another post.

That is about all I can say about Edward. Actually, it isn't but my hand hurts from typing and I am about to leave. If you want to know more about the books or the movie check out the website: www.stepheniemeyer.com. Thanks for reading.

Every lament is a love song.~Switchfoot~

This is my lament.

I had to do one of the hardest things I have ever done. I had to write a letter. It wasn't the writing that was hard, but the content of the letter broke my heart as, I am sure, it will break the heart of a very dear friend. I feel it was the right thing to do. I believe it is what God has been asking me to do for sometime now. I was just too selfish to obey.

With the help and prayers of a good friend I was finally able to accept the truth. He did not suggest I write the letter, but he encouraged me to pray. Through prayer, I wrote a letter. A letter I wish with all my heart never had to be written.

So it was with a broken heart and tender soul I went to work today. I subbed for a second grade class and one of the girls had a doctor's appointment. When she came back, she brought me a beautiful branch full of cherry blossoms (pictured above) and an almond chocolate bar. Her father told me she wanted to bring me gifts because she loves me. If I had not been in school, I may well have just burst into tears.

God knew I was going to need reassurance today. He used a beautiful young lady, His magnificent creation and His gift of sweets to brighten my dreary day. My heart sang with praise as she handed me her gifts. The flowers sat on the desk all day for all to see and to serve as a reminder to me that God is sovereign. He knows the plans He has for me, plans to benefit and not for evil. (Paraphrased from Jeremiah 29:11)

I cling to this promise today. There is a man out there who God has shaped especially for me. When the time is right, we will meet, fall in love and spend the rest of our lives together.

So today I am praising God in this storm as the Casting Crowns song says.

I pray both of us will find the peace that passes all understanding. The peace which doesn't make sense when the storms of life are battering us and all seems hopeless. I pray broken relationships are mended, cold loves rekindled and hearts restored.

I also ask for prayer for myself. A close friend told me God intends this to make me better, not bitter. I am not bitter, but I have a tendency to do so. My greatest desire is to glorify God. Thanks for reading.

Spring has sprung!!!

Happy Resurrection Day!!! I love this time of year. Springtime is my favorite because it is a time of renewal and rebirth. It seems as if the world resets itself and begins anew. I always get the feeling I can begin again. That all the mistakes I have made in the previous twelve months can be atoned for and rectified. It is a time to reflect on the awesome sacrifice my Lord Jesus made for me. It is a time to renew my faith and strengthen my brothers and sisters in Christ. I love spring!

March 20th was the official first day of spring. Here in the Panhandle, it was a beautiful day. I was taking my dog, Jigsaw, for a walk around our property. We have on our property some fruit trees. We have a couple of bruce plums (which were developed by someone I am related to) and a peach tree. Jig and I were walking past one of the plum trees when I noticed it was in bloom. It was so pretty I decided to get my camera and take a picture. One thing lead to another and I found myself looking for any sign of spring. So long story short, I took lots of pics I wanted to share. Unfortunately, I can't add them all to this blog but if you visit www.myspace.com/poet826, you can see the album. It's titled Spring.

Well, today is Easter and I am sick as a dog. I have a headache, upset stomach, sore throat, cough and dizziness. I missed church this morning which made me very sad. I had a really cute outfit I had gotten to wear today and I didn't get to. I did get up and eat dinner with my family, but I had to retire to my room almost immediately because I wear out quickly. I am hoping whatever is wrong with me will pass soon. I am supposed to sub on Wednesday and Friday.

Pray for me to recover soon. Also pray for my emotional well being. I have had a rough couple of days and have been staving off a depression. I am okay today but it seems to have become a day to day thing. I am praying for a resolution soon. That's it for now. Thanks for reading.

Addendum: The Gift

I remembered something I wanted to share. We found out today that one of my cousins is pregnant with their second child. We are very excited for her and her husband. It is wonderful to have new additions to the family.

The extraordinary thing about it, though, is my mom knew my cousin was pregnant 3 weeks ago. You may think she just knew because she could tell by looking at her, but what you may not know is my cousin lives 6 hours away so we don't see them very often. My mom seems to have an uncanny knack for knowing when family members are pregnant without any reason for knowing. Once or twice, she has known before the mother did! She has done this with all my cousins. It is an amazing gift. I look forward to the day when I am pregnant and she just knows! Thanks for reading...again.

Jeans, gravity and leprechauns...

Happy St. Patrick's Day!! If you want to learn the history of this day in a fun and humorous way, check out the Veggietales DVD, Sumo of the Opera. There is a St. Paddie's Day story on it. I find it rather interesting and amusing.

A friend asked me the other day if I had a favorite pair of jeans. At that time, I did not. There is a pair I wear often, but that is because they fit and they are not too long. But that has changed. I have found my new favorite jeans. I got them on the clearance rack at Target. They are Mossimo vintage jeans. They have that I-have-worn-these-for-years look. They fit me perfectly and look good on me. So here is a picture of me in my new fav jeans.


If you are wondering, I am leaning on my dilapidated '88 Buick Riviera. It hasn't been driven in years because all the tires are flat, the transmission and the battery are shot, and the front passenger side fender is smashed. It was my first car and I loved it until my dad trashed it. It had a touchscreen and leather seats that you could flip over to velour. It was a 25th anniversary edition and had all kinds of bells and whistles. I miss that car. *sigh*

Well, enough reminiscing. I am really enjoying subbing. I just never know what will happen from day to day. I love walking down the hall and hearing children say "Hi!" as they wave at me. The downside is I am never guaranteed to have work and in the summer, they will not need me. I think I am going to sub until the summer and then begin seriously looking for something more permanent and that pays more. I really do want to move out and I can't do that as sub.

I received the Oh, Gravity! album by Switchfoot today. I have listened to it about 50 million times. There is one song in particular that I am in love with. It is called Yesterdays. It is sad, but it is a beautiful ballad about a friend who has died. I also really like the songs Amateur Lovers and Awakening. I would recommend this album to anyone.

Well, that is about all I have say today. Thanks for reading.